LoTs Of ThInGs To SaY..

dun really hav alot of time to say anythin.. haha tired like hell and wanna sleep.. haha wont be talkin bout the camp.. just but my past 3 days thinking.. haha yes... as much as u dun realize it.. im actually thinkin went i look like im slackin.. haha remember.. a human talks to himself at least 80000 times a day.. just know that the past three days was fun.. i sat next to ivan chan so that was a little cool.. haha but behind hanifi.. so every time he shake his leg he keep rockin our table.. haha

i just realized that actually me and arvind hav very alike personalities.. except that i think a little bit more while he has a slightly higher action impulse.. haha.. anyway.. today he came up to the stage that was tlkin bout his family and all.. then he said somethin u know.. he had just cracked a joke and then said that he was tryin to prevent him slef from crying by makin a joke.. went he said that it suddenly hit me that that was the exact same thing as i do when ever i was sad and wanted to cry.. the other nite also when ramesh was talkin bout wat would happen if ur parents died.. then while every one was cryin me and chan and very little few were actually just keepin quiet.. so many ppl ask why i never cry and all.. then they say is cause i sadist and like to see my parents die.. haha... wat kind of kid would be like that sia... obviously not me rite.. haha the only reason why i never cry was because i was only thinkin of them die.. but not of them leavin me.. i was thinkin bout them diein.. but at the same time also was thinkin bout all the jokes that we shared.. haha thats why i never cry... i also realize that i had been through so many of these things.. camps that expect u to open up to ur peers.. and while every one was cryin i was smilin.. its really really weird.. but it only cause i dun like to cry.. and the only reason why i smile or giggle when every one else is sad is simply cause i dun wanna cry..

i got a question.. if u knew some one from 3 yrs ago.. and wanted to meet them now.. so u meet and then u realize that this person has become very different from last time.. (not in a bad way.. but at the same time diff from wat u previously enjoyed from that person.. ) you then decide not to find or talk to the person anymore... after a while the two of u meet on the street and suddenly the person is back to normal.. then same likeable-ness that the person had 3 yrs ago.. and u then realize that actually this person is both of them... and u dont know hwether to remain as frens with this person or not.. wats ur answer? haha kindly tag bout it plz
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kk GOOD NITE